It's Been Happening

I've been aware of it for some time, and the day that we never thought that this day would come so soon is finally here. It's almost the end of the summer. When I left work last night, I noticed the sun surprisingly close to the hills to the west, and even though I did leave work a tad later than usual, I haven't seen the sun so close to the hills in a while. the day is ending sooner, and the summer is wrapping up. Our intern's last day is today as well, and when I was initially worried that I wouldn't be able to find something for her to do every day, I have now found her indispensable. I don't know, it's a bit of a bummer.

And since I've been a little bit obsessive about it, that also effects my ability to shoot as well. I guess I really couldn't have done this any sooner, but now with my new camera, I have less and less opportunity to shoot with decent light. Yes, when I get off work, I do have the advantage of being out during the "golden time," but I'm also in a place that's rather good to photograph, but there isn't much to really take, and I honestly want/need to get out of the area for the sake of my sanity, and by the time I'm anywhere I can actually shoot, I either have to find a place to find parking or it's already dark.

I don't know if this morning's overcast sky is also a sign of the beginning of the end. Now that I think about it, this August hasn't been as hot as I otherwise would have expected it. Sure, we did have some sweltering days, but August is usually reserved for the "Dog Days of Summer," and yet, we really haven't had much of that. August has gone by like a blur, thanks to the madness that's been happening at work, and just all the other general craziness that's been happening around me. It's pretty tough to think that all this time is going by, and I wish that I would have done so much more...but I guess that's beyond my control when other things presents itself and as responsible people, we've got to take care of things.

It's also been pretty fun, as well. I've seen some really great things, eaten good food, gone to great places. I've been able to hang out with friends with whom I haven't hung out in such a long time. It's crazy to think that there are people who I could not live without (partly because I did live with one of them), but we now live in different places (polar opposites of the Greater Los Angeles Area), and life just doesn't allow us to really spend time with each other like in the days when we were banging around Westwood and the Valley. I guess other circumstances have prevented more things from happening, and I really don't regret that I haven't done enough. It's better than nothing. Except, I guess, for the Olympics. It would have been great to have watched more of it, and it really doesn't help that when I speak to anyone in my family, who has had the privilege to watch a lot of the Olympics, thanks to HD channels and the like, and they like telling me that I've missed out on a lot of things. It's not like I need to be told, I know. And I'm sad. There goes yet another Olympics that I wasn't able to follow in the way that I otherwise would have wanted. Oh well. I guess them's the brakes.

It's really tough to think that even though there are times when I'm able to go out and have fun, just like any other time of the year, but the summer has always been to me as a time when extra fun and magic happens, when the weather's hot and you can either go to the beach or to the movies where there's air conditioning. I don't know. As a student, I really valued my summer, especially after I started college...I never valued my summer more than after my first year of college. I never wanted to do a lot of nothing so much ever in my life. It was so bad, I didn't even touch the internet in a little over a month after leaving my dorm room, which was remarkable considering I was just living in a place where I would constantly be on the computer with a very fast internet connection (in comparison to the dial-up we had at home - I suppose that would have contributed to my wanting to not go on the internet on a snail's internet pace).

I'm not sure what the next season will hold. I don't know what the next week will hold. Each month this year has seemed to present its own interesting challenge, and when I would think that I've successfully met that challenge of the month, the next month always seems to provide another surprise challenge I otherwise wouldn't have expected.

I guess that some of all of this feeling is that I'm kind of in this state of anticipating something happening for me. I know that these things won't happen on its own, that I have to make the effort for things to happen. I have been doing what I think I've needed to do to make things happen, even though I know that I can be doing more. But I'd like to think that I'm doing pretty well for myself, that I'm trying to take some control in what's to come in the future, and perhaps I'm kind of hoping that all my efforts won't be done in vain. I suppose everyone would expect that from their actions, but after such a challenging year so far, I really need to make sure that I make things happen for myself, and those things will go well so that tomorrow will be a better day.